I’ve suffered from OCD for years. I believe it started sometime after my first job when added responsibilities and expectations were placed on my shoulders after I delivered quality work continuously. And everyone always expected me to do the same every time.
That put me slightly under pressure, and I developed the habit of checking and testing things excessively even when everything seemed to be in order. I used to test and verify something, try to shift my attention to something else, but suddenly a thought comes in my mind, which urges me to visualize everything I just did, and if I am not satisfied, I go back to testing the thing again. The failure was simply not an option because that’s what everyone expected of me. It wasted years of my life, and I simply couldn’t move forward because of the recurring obsessive thoughts.
I thought I was the only one with such a habit. I didn’t know it was a disorder, then. But eventually, it started to go out of control and made me tired and sweaty all the time. So, I decided to search on Google about that, and I was surprised to see that it was a documented disorder, and I am not the only one suffering from that.
I started learning more about it and the treatment from different sites, articles, and self-help books and found about CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). I tried to treat myself with CBT, and eventually, after some hard work now, I can control the unwanted thoughts “most” of the time.
I recently came across and took the professional CBT course because I felt that there could be more people like me. People who would be wasting the years of their life without knowing about the disorder they have or if it could be treated, so it’s just a way to help those people because I feel that I am the best person to help because I’ve suffered and treated myself from it using CBT.
If you can relate to the above, feel free to talk to me with confidence. Your identity will be kept private.
